Yesterday I was preparing to lead worship for today. I was talking to my mom just about how didn't "feel close" to God and I didnt feel like I could lead worship. My mom stoped me and reminded me that GOD is worthy to be praised, and He will consume the sacrifice that I lay on the alter.

Thank God for Godly mothers!

Tuesday Morning

I woke up this morning.

LORD, use this life. As I walk this earth, may I be bless, and not curse. Give me eyes which are open to you're greatness, and a ready mouth to proclaim You're Glory. I need a heart that yearns for you. Lord make me hungry for You, the bread of life.

Blessed are the poor in spirit

Jesus once said that the Poor in spirit are blessed. People are physically poor all the time. Beggers recognize their need and activly pursue the esentials to survive. It is the same way Spiritually. We must recognize our desperate situation, We can not save ourselves, our wisdom is not God's wisdom. We are hungry for the Bread of Life. We are hungery for a word from God. We know that our spirits will die with out His word.

Beggers ask.

Through redeeming sacrifice of Jesus, we are abel to come before God. We can ask the King, whose welth is unmatched, to provide. And our King knows how to give good gifts.

anyways, these are just a few thoughts... now I need to go to work.

help me to keep the mindset that I am a begger and You are THE KING. Let me cry out to you all day long.

Sometimes you know know what you need until you get it.

a much needed break

Finally some down time. I can do those things I never take the time to do..... I called a couple people tonight.... I even made some phone calls to Central Asia to talk to my host brother Lyosha (I now know it is 5:55am there) oops.

I've been emailing people and stuff... communicating... ya know.

I dont know why but I leave very little down time for myself. And if I foresee down time, I'll make plans.

It is so great when you can have down time with other people around. (where you dont feel like you have to entertain them, or them you.) you just feel comfortable to do the things you got to do... with them around. I love my parents.

Blessed be the Name of the Lord

I dont know what to say today. I'm fairly content. The only thing on my mind is this paper I need to write for English Comp. I dont know why I took this class. I put a lot of effort into it... and that is why my high school teachers passed me.... I do want to learn to communicate well and write papers so that I can be taken seriously. After all, I am a holy representive of Jesus(although I tend to forget it) and if I cant be taken seriously then people will not take Jesus seriously either.

Its Time

A lot of people claim Jesus Christ as their Savior, but still will not openly admit to ever doing any wrong. I was among that group. But if Jesus Christ is your Savior, doesnt he have to save you from something? I'm taking a course in sexual purity because I could not overcome it on my own.

The first day opened my eyes. What is your motivation to be free from sexual sin? (This can be applied to whatever your poison might be)

Is it to:

• Show how STRONG of a CHRISTIAN you are?
• Show how STRONG of a Savior JESUS is?

Its time we embrace our past and our future and move in what is Good. Its time to tare down strongholds which have held you captive. Its time to open up past experiences and allow the blood of Christ to transform them into something good.

I've got some good news.... and I've got some... Good News

Well... my last entry talked about writing.... this morning I got my paper back. I got an A-. I was hype... You smart people are probably used to it. But when my teacher said that 4 people in the class were going to have to rewrite there essays, I knew I was one of those 4....but I wasnt.
This past weekend I went to the Cabin with the boys (Jeremy Horning, Josh Brubaker, Tyler Yoder, and Brandon Leaman. We went out on the roof of the cabin on Saturday night and watched the stars. We saw 3 amazing shooting stars!

Today we had a prayer meeting at my church. There are few things scarier than a church that prays. When people join themselves, before God, asking for his kingdom to come, things begin to change. Prayer connects the natural world, we see with our human eyes, with the Super Natural world, which we see with our hearts. It makes me think about Adam and Eve before we screwed up… Their eyes were opened.... to what? To the "natural"... to what many people call "reality". Adam's post-sin reality was full of fear, and and trying to "cover up" their nakedness.

Now, because of Jesus’ payment for sin, we can come before God, no longer naked but instead clothed with the blood of Jesus. And the devil shakes in his shoes, because his reign has come to an end.

If I am to live in Your spiritual kingdom give me eyes to see where I am going.